Feel the Fear and DO IT ANYWAY!!!!

Two months ago, I decided to start a blog…this entire post is about my experiences in the last two months as I have challenged myself to step out of my comfort zone.  (kind of like a roller coaster ride)

Today’s personal challenge was to make an unedited video and post it.  TBH,  I have been thinking about it for about a month now, and talking myself out of it for one reason or another……. but I finally jumped and did it.

Before you watch the video, if you choose to, let me again state that there is no real point to the video, except that I needed to challenge myself to do something I was afraid of and I did it and it didn’t kill me…..YET.… my stomach is still in knots….

I began my blog/ website (whatever the technical term is about 2 months ago.)  I originally had thoughts about writing about Multiple Sclerosis, but what did I want to write about?  That it sucks?  Yes it does!  Ok, so not that….

How do you make the most of your life in spite of having MS?   Better…maybe.   So I decided to start there.  Please keep in mind, I also just jumped into the blog thing.  I had never heard of wordpress, and while I have taken a couple classes in html programming, I have never put my knowledge into practice.  I created an account on wordpress.com, paid $8.00 a month upfront for a year and then my mind went completely blank.  Oh shit now what?  This was my first blog post. 

I laughed so hard that day.  I was proud of myself for FINALLY taking that first step.  It just felt good.  I  spent the next couple of weeks writing SOMETHING almost everyday, but I could never focus on just one subject, some posts were about MS, some were technology struggles as I continued to dig into blogging concepts, some were just random rants about life.

After being in the blogging world for about a month, I realized that what I was actually trying to do is to Put myself out there, and to connect with other people.  I have enjoyed chatting with other bloggers and hearing their struggles.  I have met other people that are living with autoimmune disorders and chronic illnesses, and learned how they deal with life on a day to day basis.  I’ve made new friendships with “millennials”, and I have learned alot about myself in the process.  Most importantly, I have learned that I want to learn everything about everything, and I need to slow down a bit.

I still don’t have a topic to blog about, or a niche, other than reaching out to people, talking about my life, and learning about others.  If any of that sounds cool to you, say hello, let’s talk and get to know each other.  I’ve put myself out there, as scary as it was, so now it’s your turn.  I don’t mean hey let’s talk on the phone everyday or anything, but I mean let’s talk…really talk about any and everything….ok well maybe not anything, but maybe you get my point…..

Ok so now for the infamous, Link to COMPLETELY POINTLESS FIRST VIDEO

Again, posting this was a personal challenge for me.  I can already think of 5,000 things I could have or should have done.  But there it is…..



21 thoughts on “Feel the Fear and DO IT ANYWAY!!!!

    1. Lol. yes I am definitely a jump first kind of person. I didn’t really have any goals for doing the video other than to do it. They say the first step is always the hardest and that is done now….although I’m still a little nauseous. I am determined that if I have any regrets when I die, they will not be regrets about things I was too afraid to try.

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  1. Awe, I loved it!! Nice to meet you😊 You have such a great speaking voice and not once did I question a word you said so whoever told you don’t enunciate…they just weren’t listening. It’s nerve racking and yet freeing on the back side to put yourself out there on social media, but I really enjoy your writings, your candor, your humor. Thank you for sharing a bit of you with us.🌸😊

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    1. Honey you are so Sweet!!! EVERYTIME you comment I want to Hug you!!!! The whole enunciate thing first began with talk and type on my cell phone. I would estimate that 80% of what I try to say, I end up having to retype anyway. For example, when I say “I love you” to my kids, it still types ” I live you”. One day the girls told me I didn’t enunciate, so I said enunciate in the phone…..it typed E9C8…smh

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      1. Silly cell phone speakers! That’s a funny story tho. 😁 A couple people have told me to enunciate as I’m pretty shy and have a soft voice. With the weakness from this illness that stuff is magnified. I’ve adopted the theory of – if you want to hear me actively listen.😉😊 Oh and unrelated…I’d tell someone you think, but can’t be sure, that you saw that power line spark. 🙈🙉🙊


  2. Reblogged this on MS Graceful…NOT! and commented:

    Remember THIS I love lucy type moment? I turned the camera on myself with no topic and lasted about 10 mintues. If you don’t remember, or haven’t seen the video, please check it out. I will try to make another one next week and see if I have improved at all


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